Not Always Rainbows...

Most of my blog entries focus on all the positive things happening in my family...I want my kids to look back on my words and see that they brought Kyle and me immense joy. However, sometimes being a parent is just plain hard for a variety of reasons. I want to acknowledged this because I think it is important for other moms to know...we are all imperfect people attempting to make "perfect" decisions for our kids. At least that is how I view myself. I struggle with control issues...not so much with others but internally. I am a "fixer"...I want to fix whatever is going on in the lives of my kids. This is one reason I loved my school counseling job...great outlet for a "fixer". However as tough as it is too acknowledge...my efforts will never be enough...I can never be a perfect enough parent to keep my kids from trials. God has definitely placed this on my heart today. If I was enough...my kids would never need a Savior. Some of my feelings to fix have been brought on by Cora's ongoing digestive issues and new double ear infection. I have researched a ton and talked to her GI nurse a couple of times already this week. I want to FIX it. However, I can only do so much until the rest of my worries need to be given to the Lord. He is the ultimate healer and will direct my path. Prayers are always appreciated as I do not like seeing my sweet girl in pain. Much thanks!